Quick Peek at my World

Tulad ng ulan sa gitna ng tag-init Pulang Santan sa bugkos ng dilaw Sayaw sa liriko ng tula Tubig sa lalamunang uhaw Di inasahan, di pinilit, di pinlano Biglang umusbong, damdaming nagpabago Sa utak at puso na matagal na naglaho Binago ang buhay sa dati'y hindi klaro Minsan sa buhay, biglang dumarating Mga bagay na hindi inaasahan Mga lugar na hindi pa nararating Mga pangyayaring hindi akalain Ang alam ko lang sa ating buhay na di tiyak Minsan dumarating mga bagay at taong dala ay galak Sa pusong dati ay puno ng duda at tanong Saya ang hatid sa simpleng "Mahal Kita" na binulong

Parang kahapon lang.. Nang tayo ay magkakilala At masilayan ko Ang maganda mong mga mata Parang kahapon lang.. Nararamdaman ay ipinagtapat Puso ay nagkasundo At mga labi ay naglapat Parang kahapon lang.. Sinimulan mo sa akin ipadama Lalim ng pagmamahal Na noon pa man ay aking hiling at dasal Parang kahapon lang.. Nabubuhay ng malungkot at nag iisa Tinatahak ang buhay ng walang saya Naglalakbay na puno ng pangamba Parang kahapon lang.. Nang dumating ka at pinasaya Puso ko na puno ng pagdurusa Pinalitan ng pag ibig at ligaya Kalahating taon mula noon Isang daan at walumpu’t araw na ngaion. Wari’y napakahabang panahon Mahal ko, ikaw at ikaw pa rin.. sa puso ko ay naroon.

I wish I can tell you how wonderful you are, How your face shine with every laugh and smile. I wish I can wipe away every tear and scar, that hurts your heart and stains your eye. I wish I can say how you brighten each day. How you keep all my sadness, and sorrows at bay. You gave color to my life, like flowers of May. How my heart skips, with every word you say. I wish I can show you how proud I am. that you fight everyday, as much as you can. How you continue dreaming each night and day, and working for that dream, come what may. I wish you'll see this love I have. as pure and white as feathers of doves. I want to give you this heart of mine. Wishing our dreams, and stars are aligned. I wish you'd tell me what ails your soul. what makes your emotions run hot and cold. That way, I would know how to heal your pain. cure your heart, make you happy again. All these wishes, I can't say in words. but through my actions, I wish you'd heard. This soundless voice can never eve...

Behind my smile Is a hurting heart Behind my laugh I sometimes fall apart Look closely  and you will find The reflection you see Is nothing but fine I mingle and party Even when my heart is paltry Smile and laugh Even when it's torn in half Force myself to be happy Dance like everything is just dandy Smile away the sorrows Laugh like there's no tomorrow What you see is a mere shadow Of what I was, not so long ago And yet here I am still pushing and trying To live each day, eventhough, deep inside I'm dying

Like leaves falling on an Autumn day, Like a breeze blowing in the middle of May. You came to me in an unexpected way, Completed my life, made me happy and gay. But like grains of sand in my small fingers, Even with hands open or fingers closed. You're slowly fading, doesn't want to linger Leaving me raw, and my heart exposed. It hurts to see you slipping away. With each day passing, I see you going astray. But it's more painful now because,  much to my dismay, I  know, you were never really mine anyway.

Aasa pa ba? Sa ipinangako mong saya Na iibsan mo ang lungkot Ng aking bawat umaga Maghihintay pa ba? Bigyan mo ng oras at pansin Ang pusong nangungulila Na ika'y makapiling Mamahalin pa ba? Ang puso mong manhid At ang tenga mong bingi Sa aking mga hinaing Pagbibigyan pa ba? Ang puso ko na umasa Sa tunay na pagmamahal Na ipinangako mo sana Pakikinggan pa ba? Ang bawat rason at dahilan Patuloy pa ba mabubuhay Sa gitna ng kawalan Hanggang kailan magtatanong Ang utak kong pagod na Hanggang kailan maghihintay sayo Pansinin ako, kailan nga ba?

He will say she just left him  That she was gone just like that Didn't give him the chance To work things out But what he don't realise And still yet to understand She had sent him her tears Wrapped in poetry and rhymes  She had sung of her heartache Of how she hungered to grow That feeling of emptiness Untouched sadness and sorrow How she longed for their love To reach the depths of the seas Yearning to tango in heaven And everywhere in between But he could not hear her  Or acknowledge her words Saying she was all wrong And that the problem were hers And soon he will sit there With tears in his eyes He'll wish he'd just listened To her heart wrenching cries

  Darating ang isang umaga, Magigising ako ng madaling araw.. At kapag lumingon ako sa aking tabi, Mukha mo ang aking masisilayan. Darating din ang isang bukas, Na ipipikit ko ang aking mata... At iyong magandang ngiti, Ang huling tanawin na aking makikita. Kapit lang Mahal ko, Hindi dahilan ang pag-alis ko. Para tuluyang masira ang pangako, At mga pangarap na matagal nating binuo. Hintay lang, Mahal ko, Babalik at makakapiling mo din ako. Itutuloy natin ang paggawa ng mga alaala, Hanggang sa pagtanda ko.

  Nakatingin sa langit, Malalim na nag iisip. Patuloy pa bang kakapit, Sa pag-ibig na masakit? Dating mainit na yakap, Simpleng haplos, matamis na ngiti. Napalitan ng malamig na tingin, Kawalan ng oras, tengang bingi. Litratong dati'y tinititigan, Ngayon halos ayaw pagmasdan. Ngiti na dating para akin, Ngayon tila napunta sa kawalan. Kakapit paba sa pusong malamig? Mananatili sa yakap na walang lambing. Hahalik pa ba sa labing nakalimot? Na dati tanging ligaya ang dulot. Wala na ba ang dating pagtingin? Ikaw pa ba'y patuloy na iibigin? Sabihin mo sa akin ano ang gagawin, Sa lamig ng gabi na wala ka sa piling.

Paano nga ba.. Kalimutan ang labi mo na kayganda? Iwaglit sa isip ang mapungay mong mga mata, At iwasan ang alala na palaging nadarama. Paano nga ba.. Mabubuhay ng wala ka? Itutuloy ang pangarap na hindi ka kasama, At aaliwin ang sarili na puro lungkot lang ang nangunguna. Paano nga ba.. Magsisimula ulit kapag ako'y iniwan mo na? Gugustuhin gumising pa sa bawat umaga, At tatahakin ang buhay na wala ng ningning at saya. Paano nga ba.. Tanong ng aking isip na nangangamba Bulong ng aking puso na nag aalala Turuan mo ako.. paano nga ba?

The best way to deal with pain is to endure it.  Only then will it heal.." - Ex with Benefits How do I unlove you? How do I tell my mind that you're not mine to keep? How do I stop this pulse that tells me this feeling is true? Tell me please, before my heart can leap. How do I not think of you? How do I close my eyes without seeing your face? How can I not hear your name and not feel blue? Tell me please, my mind is in a daze. I did not plan on loving you... I did not count on feeling this way. Now I don't know what to do... Tell me please, if you may. If only I can go back in time, To before I saw your pretty face; To before I saw your sweet smile; To before, in your eyes, I gazed. It would have meant less heartaches, Less sorrow, less pain. It would have also meant a dark existence, No sunshine, just rain. I would not be happy, But I will not miss you so... I would not be as lively, But I would not dread the day that you go.

Sa Isla ng Talim, mga ibo'y nananahan Pugad itinayo sa pusod ng kagubatan Ayungi'y dinadagit sa tubig na may kalamigan Sa gitna ng hanging habagat o amihan Tatagpasin ang ulan, hangin at lamig Kanawa'y lilipad sa malapad na langit Bubulusok paibaba sa malamig na tubig Iimbulog paitaas, ayungin sa bibig nakapiit Pag isda'y nadagit kanaway muling lilipad Sa pusod ng kagubatan, pakpak ay mapapadpad Bitbit ang ayunging kanina'y dinalupadpad Tungo sa naghihintay na inakay sa pugad Saan mang dako ipanig ang paningin Tao man, o ibon rin Lalayo ang ama o inahin Ngunit babalik sa pugad, upang inaka'y pakainin Sa kabila ng lahat ng susuunging hirap Magulang o kanaway patuloy na magsisikap Di alintana mga balakid na makakaharap Maitaguyod ang anak, siyang tanging pinapangarap Clerissa Carritero-Austria Dec. 7, 2003 Isla ng Talim Note: This poem was first published in Manila East Watch Vol 3 Issue 19 Dec 15-21, 2003

Nagsimula sa ngiti, asaran at kantiyawan. Hanggang sa kalauna’y nauwi, sa malalim na pagmamahalan.. Hindi alintana mga balakid at pagsubok na haharapin. Lahat ng ito ay kakayanin, manatili lang na ika’y akin. Lungkot ay naging saya, luha napalitan ng ligaya. Pag-ibig na iyong ibinigay, sa puso ko mananatili habang buhay. Pero kahit anung gawin, mga problema darating. Away, selos at pagdududa, lagi padin papagitna sa atin. Ang tanging hiling ko sa’yo aking mahal, Sa tuwing pagsubok ay nariyan, palagi mo sanang iisipin.. Ako ang nasa pagitan, ng madilim na kahapon at magandang bukas.. Ako ang bubura sa mapait na alaala ng nakaraan, at maliwanag na hinaharap ay sisimulan. Ako ang magmamahal sayo ngaion, bukas at hanggang sa banda pa roon. Ako ang kasama mo bubuo at tutupad ng mga pangarap.. Kahit alam ko, sa huli ay ndi ako kasama ni sa hinagap. Kaya huwag ka muna bibitaw aking mahal, puso ay hindi pa handa. Kahit pa alam ko.. at tanggap ko.. Na ikaw ay hindi ...

I see your name.. and it all flashes back. The memories.. The secret smiles.. The light touches.. The sweet kisses. I hear your voice.. and it all rushes in. The places we've seen.. The people we've met.. The food we've tasted.. The laughter we've shared. I see your picture.. and the tears slowly fall. Because I miss the smile on your face.. Miss the tight hugs you gave.. Miss the moments we've shared.. And because deep down I know.. It's now all part of the past. Something that we cannot go back to.. No matter how hard we want it to be. There is no US anymore.. All that's left is YOU with Her.. And ME with Him.

Mylove... Tomorrow, I want to wake up.. to the smell of seawater teasing my nose; to the feel of the early morning sun slowly kissing my face.. to the sound of gently crashing waves in the distance; And to the feel of your arms around my waist.. Tonight, I lie in bed thinking... of the way we held hands while looking at the corals underwater; of the way you smiled at me while on our boat ride. of the silent message you send when you look into my eyes; And the quick little embraces you make all the time. Yes, it's hard to sleep thinking about you. But as I think and ponder tonight, I will fall into sleep with a smile on my lips. For tomorrow is yet another day to make more memories with you. Those I can store for the many sleepless nights that I spend without you. Fear not, for you are my last thought tonight.. the hero in my dreams.. and the ray of sunshine of my tomorrow.

I want to feel nothing.. I want to act like I don't care.. I want to show you that I can live without you.. And that I can love again The truth is... I died today. I felt my heart breaking into a million pieces... My day turned into a black world full of nothingness.. You made me so broken that I don't know if I will ever see sunshine again.. But I'm strong.. I know I am. I will find someone who will deserve my love ... and love me back in return. Someone who will not throw me away. And someone who will be there to light up my days again. Thank you for hurting me deeply. For breaking my heart. For showing me that I am nothing. Because now, you made me fall out of love for you. I can now completely forget you.. without feeling guilty. Thank you. Because now, I am free.

I hate... commuting. 'Coz it makes me sit still, and gives me time to think. about how insignifacant I am, in this vast universe I am in. I hate.. sad movies. 'Coz it makes me lose hope, it tells me that there is an end. and that no matter how hard you try, In the end, you still cry. I hate.. love songs. It tells you how others loved and lost. How feelings are not reciprocated. It shows you glimpses of past ghosts, Of love that was there before. I hate.. rain. 'Coz it spells sadness, and it symbolizes tears. The pitter patter of raindrops from the sky, makes me wither and die inside. I hate.. that moment when you lie in bed and think. Of what you're supposed to do with your life, Of what you would be when you die. It tells me that no matter how many good things you did in this lifetime, That no matter how much you loved and cared...In the end when you close your eyes, and when the darkness envelops your being... You will ...

The sea is calling, My feet miss the sand.. Sunrise or sunset, Are both pretty where I stand.. Hot days, cold nights; Sadness and Despair.. All cured in an instant, Whenever I'm there.. Wait for me, my friend sea.. So you can wrap me in your waves again. Refresh me with your gentle breeze, Chase away the sorrows, before it begins.

Live. Laugh. Love. 3 words that convey so many meanings. It is both very simple and yet so complicated. I live - for my kids, for my family, for my friends. I live each day like it is my last. I try each day to be the best that I can be, to live up to the expectations of those around me.. to reach the highest dream that I can, to be worthy of the time and attention that I am given. I've succeeded in most, failed in some. But I tried to live fully, so damn hard, all these years. And I lived for myself too. While trying to be a good friend, good mother, good sibling, good child.. I enjoyed my life to the fullest extent. I traveled as much as I can, seen many sunrises and sunsets, faced and conquered my fears.. I stumbled and fell so many times, but in every instance.. I got back up again and continued. I've lost my way repeatedly, but always managed to go back home. I lived, and will continue living the life that I wanted.. regardless of what people say or think about m...

I’m an adventurer. I work hard, yes. But I need to recharge every now and then. Every few months or so, I give in to the somber feeling of my feet missing the lapping of the waves… My face longing to feel the touch of the gentle sea breeze… My eyes wanting to see either the sunset's burst of colors or maybe the hope that sunrise brings. In me there is a need to give in to the wanderlust of my soul… Otherwise, my heart will slowly perish from the seemingly aimless tunnel of life I am passing through. And when that happens, I pack my bags and allow life to lead me to places that my otherwise practical self will not dare go. And today is one of them. I had the foresight of buying cheaper internet deals a few months in advance, for the days when I needed “me time”. So with my blue-moon buddy Pia and my good friend Robert in tow, we joined a group tour offered by McTrail Travel and Tours to the beautiful island of Anawangin. We contacted them a week in advance and they were kind en...